Trial & Error: 動物篇 （牛熊證）

 好灰

非常灰

明明已經有一班神級隊友，個個投資都超級勁! 

明明我已經好勤力，上投資課程、睇投資書、睇投資blogs, 有唔明就問，逐個範疇學，唔識盡量學到識。

明明隊友已經好好心，好畀心機教我。

我還是失敗了。😔😔😔😔😔

我辜負了他們的教導。

我看不起自己。

當然，睇返往績，你可以話已經有改善，蝕少咗。注碼細咗，好似識做少少風險管理。

動物，小賭怡情。

但我知唔係咁。

先賭為快

蝕嘅，係媽咪個倉。

隻牛劏咗。26288劏，跌到26276，即時反彈，冇仇報。

之前幫媽咪買大快活，蝕咗好多。年尾，我學人粉飾櫥窗，賣咗止蝕後，想買隻牛，填返條數。結果變0.

我自己個倉，通常睇好長線，買咗就唔理。仲想有現金流，所以學用股票期權，賺到權金，就用嚟買正股。

另一方面，我好鍾意刺激，牛熊個槓桿好勁，個價浮動得好厲害。睇住個價升升跌跌，腎上腺素颷升。好high.

但贏輸係冇準則。贏嘅次數，多過輸好多。不過，成功經驗，無法複製。

就算贏咗好多次嘅錢，只要輸1次，就輸突。

我見幾個戶口夾埋，近150萬股票，仲有近百萬現金。(現金係留嚟接貨嘅)

攞2萬幾蚊，去買牛熊，搏吓，媽咪個倉就好睇好多。

而家就唔知點搞。😔

媽咪倉位好細，每個月儲$1500,儲好耐，先有呢$28000 😢

我撈亂咗，自己個倉嘅承受力，同媽咪個倉嘅風險管理。

係我爛賭。

昨天，我生日。開市時，隻牛仲值$0.018. 但我唔捨得止蝕認賠。然後，光速劏了。

全日都冇心機。

昨天，冬至。全日在媽咪家，隻字不敢提佢嘅股票倉。我唔識，都唔想面對。

好耐冇買過動物。以後，都要記住今日嘅難過、挫敗感。

谷友講得好啱: 唔係打邊爐，買咩牛? 

奇蹟太少　這心癮更大

受傷都不需慰解

AC講: 自責會減低改正既力量。

我逃避了一整天。今日，我面對錯誤，承認錯誤，糾正錯誤。

錢已經輸咗。咁輸得有冇意義? 我呢次學識咗乜嘢? 以後會點做?

一口氣睇清動物呢幾年嚟，對我個倉嘅影響:

(2014年前，冇記錄。賺、蝕，都唔清楚喇。)

Bought	Sold	Symbol	Stock	Bought	Sold	Volume	Trading fee	Gain/lose
2/7/2015		60113	恒指匯豐六三牛Ｆ					-20501.69
8/7/2015		63772	恒指瑞銀六一牛Ｐ	$6,430.49				-3730.71
10/7/2015	13/7/2015	67683	恒指滙豐五九牛Ｈ	$0.104	$0.118	50000	$230.86	$469.14
15/7/2015		62487	恒指瑞信五甲熊Ｗ	$0.072		80000	$130.45	-$5,890.45
9/10/2015		60333	恒指瑞信六五牛Ｂ	$0.145		100000	$162.79	-$14,662.79
13/1/2016	13/1/2016	65907	恒指瑞銀六四熊Ｎ	$0.121	$0.132	150000	$162.560	$1,487.44
13/1/2016	13/1/2016	65907	恒指瑞銀六四熊Ｎ	$0.121	$0.132	150000	$162.56	$1,487.44
9/9/2016	12/9/2016	68873	恒指瑞信七乙牛Ｓ	$0.091		20000	$162.16	-$1,982.16
11/11/2016		62305	騰訊摩通七乙牛Ｆ	$0.112		300000	$302.59	-$33,902.59
21/02/2017	21/02/2017	60314	恒指瑞銀七四熊Ｒ	$0.038	$0.045	1000000	$409.90	$6,590.10
22/03/2017	22/03/2017	65151	恒指法巴八二熊Ｄ	$0.062	$0.072	600000	$356.19	$5,643.81
18/04/2017	19/04/2017	67513	恒指瑞信八八牛	$0.072	$0.052	200000	$251.91	-$4,251.91
19/04/2017		67460	恒指法興七七熊Ｄ	$0.097	$0.000	500000	$126.76	-$48,626.76
2/6/2017		61156	恒指法興八甲牛Ｇ	$0.044	$0.049	500000	$328.58	-$22,328.58
08/06/2017		61196	恒指滙豐八八牛Ｇ	$0.026		1700000	$811.79	-$45,811.79
21/06/2017	17/07/2017	69317	恒指高盛七九熊Ｄ	$0.058		500000	$340.19	-$29,340.19
03/07/2017	04/07/2017	63532	恒指法興七甲熊Ｅ	$0.041	$0.060	500000	$183.89	$9,316.11
10/07/2017	11/07/2017	61056	恒指摩通八二牛Ｌ	$0.052	$0.062	300000	$277.63	$2,722.37
15/07/2017	18/07/2017	63692	中壽瑞信七乙熊Ａ	$0.035	$0.040	500000	$327.89	$2,172.11
20/07/2017	21/07/2017	60675	恒指瑞銀七八熊K	$0.055	$0.062	500000	$329.51	$3,170.49
25/07/2017	25/07/2017	61004	騰訊法巴八四熊Ｇ	$0.094	$0.082	300000	$184.06	-$3,784.06
31/07/2017	31/07/2017	67557	恒指摩通七十熊E	$0.046	$0.049	500000	$328.66	$1,171.34
03/08/2017	04/08/2017	68215	恒指摩通七月熊H	$0.045	$0.050	600000	$354.39	$2,645.61
07/08/2017	08/08/2017	68215	恒指摩通七月熊H	$0.034	$0.039	800000	$404.49	$3,595.51
08/08/2017	08/08/2017	68554	騰訊法興八七熊Ａ	$0.137	$0.148	200000	$184.39	$2,015.61
08/08/2017	08/08/2017	60561	騰訊瑞信八四牛Ｆ	$0.176	$0.183	200000	$185.53	$1,214.47
10/08/2017	10/08/2017	60561	騰訊瑞信八四牛Ｆ	$0.155	$0.170	200000	$185.01	$2,814.99
16/08/2017	17/08/2017	62501	騰訊法興八三牛Ｐ	$0.094	$0.108	300000	$279.66	$3,920.34
22/08/2017	22/08/2017	67268	恒指瑞信七甲熊Ｙ	$0.070	$0.075	200000	$252.24	$747.76
12/09/2017	13/09/2017	63279	騰訊滙豐八三牛Ｎ	$0.214	$0.235	300000	$395.27	$5,904.73
13/09/2017	15/09/2017	65208	恒指瑞信七乙熊Ｖ	$0.048	$0.071	800000	$437.93	$17,962.07
19/09/2017	19/09/2017	60136	騰訊法興八九熊Ａ	$0.064	$0.070	800000	$186.94	$4,613.06
26/9/2017	3/10/2017	67849	恒指摩通七乙熊Ｉ	$0.074		300000	$176.71	-$22,376.71
2/11/2017	7/11/2017	66385	港交法巴八八牛Ｐ	$0.112	$0.157	500000	$218.11	$22,281.89
6/11/2017	6/11/2017	63528	恒指摩通八乙牛Ｙ	$0.021	$0.046	500000	$327.58	$12,172.42
10/11/2017	13/11/2017	67706	恒指法興九八牛Ｄ	$0.046	$0.054	600000	$184.66	$4,615.34
13/11/2017	20/11/2017	64798	港交瑞信七甲熊Ｂ	$0.102		500000	$93.93	-$51,093.93
20/11/2017	22/11/2017	68110	騰訊法興八乙熊B	$0.061		40000	$130.19	-$2,570.19
27/11/2017	28/11/2017	60285	騰訊法巴八四熊Ｓ	$0.28	$0.335	200000	$305.47	$10,694.53
28/11/2017	28/11/2017	62251	恒指高盛九九牛Ｈ	$0.043	$0.034	1000000	$405.93	-$9,405.93
28/11/2017	29/11/2017	62798	騰訊摩通八三牛Ｎ	$0.178	$0.223	300000	$449.87	$13,050.13
30/11/2017	1/12/2017	63224	騰訊海通八四熊Ｊ	$0.29	$0.395	200000	$334.55	$20,665.45
1/12/2017	4/12/2017	61246	恒指瑞信九四牛Ａ	$0.041	$0.06	1400000	$863.93	$26,436.07
1/12/2017	1/12/2017	68515	恒指法興八三熊Ｄ	$0.062	$0.065	1500000	$595.67	$3,904.33
5/12/2017	5/12/2017	69208	恒指瑞銀八三熊Ｒ	$0.079	$0.088	800000	$477.49	$6,722.51
6/12/2017	6/12/2017	60003	恒指瑞信八四熊Ｋ	$0.067	$0.083	1000000	$511.55	$15,488.45
6/12/2017	6/12/2017	66619	恒指瑞銀八甲牛Ｚ	$0.041	$0.028	1000000	$405.32	-$13,405.32
6/12/2017	6/12/2017	60003	恒指瑞信八四熊Ｋ	$0.091	$0.105	1000000	$607.10	$13,392.90
7/12/2017	7/12/2017	60003	恒指瑞信八四熊Ｋ	$0.095	$0.108	1000000	$621.64	$12,378.36
7/12/2017	8/12/2017	66619	恒指瑞銀八甲牛Ｚ	$0.032	$0.042	1000000	$405.69	$9,594.31
8/12/2017	8/12/2017	61170	平安高盛八十牛Ｅ	$0.064	$0.076	1000000	$490.78	$11,509.22
11/12/2017	11/12/2017	60003	恒指瑞信八四熊Ｋ	$0.064	$0.050	800000	$409.42	-$11,609.42
11/12/2017	12/12/2017	66619	恒指瑞銀八甲牛Ｚ	$0.076	$0.084	2000000	$864.64	$15,135.36
13/12/2017		61539	恒指瑞信八四熊Ｐ	$0.020		2000000	$303.08	-$40,303.08
13/12/2017	15/12/2017	62700	恒指法巴九九牛Ｍ	$0.053	$0.026	3000000	$692.25	-$81,692.25
13/12/2017	13/12/2017	60003	恒指瑞信八四熊Ｋ	$0.036	$0.026	1000000	$404.77	-$10,404.77
14/12/2017	14/12/2017	60003	恒指瑞信八四熊Ｋ	$0.026	$0.033	500000	$327.28	$3,172.72
15/12/2017		60003	恒指瑞信八四熊Ｋ	$0.057		1000000	$318.39	-$57,318.39
21/12/2017	21/12/2017	62700	恒指法巴九九牛Ｍ	$0.075	$0.077	500000	$330.86	$669.14
24/01/2018	24/01/2018	64245	恒指摩通八五熊Ｏ	$0.052	$0.056	1000000	$424.31	$3,575.69
30/01/2018	02/02/2018	68048	恒指法興八四熊Ｅ	$0.095	$0.108	1000000	$623.71	$12,376.29
01/02/2018	05/02/2018	61032	恒指瑞銀九九牛Ｄ	$0.065		4000000	$410.02	-$260,410.02
28/02/2018	28/02/2018	67528	騰訊摩通八五熊Ｘ	$0.227	$0.295	100000	$404.03	$6,395.97
02/03/2018		68610	騰訊高盛八六牛Ｃ	$0.176	$0.000	100000	$131.36	-$17,731.36
21/03/2018	22/03/2018	57838	恒指瑞銀九乙牛Ｈ	$0.065	$0.073	150000	$239.10	$960.90
26/03/2018	26/03/2018	57985	恒指法興九甲牛Ｈ	$0.038	$0.054	1000000	$415.09	$15,584.91
27/03/2018	27/03/2018	57985	恒指法興九甲牛Ｈ	$0.068	$0.077	570000	$444.62	$4,685.38
27/03/2018	28/03/2018	58944	恒指瑞信八六熊Ａ	$0.065	$0.093	500000	$331.10	$13,668.90
28/03/2018	28/03/2018	57985	恒指法興九甲牛Ｈ	$0.058	$0.047	570000	$329.04	-$6,599.04
28/03/2018	28/03/2018	63852	恒指瑞銀九十牛Ｉ	$0.061	$0.042	570000	$429.93	-$11,259.93
03/04/2018	03/04/2018	59147	恒指瑞銀八七熊Ｄ	$0.152	$0.168	500000	$457.32	$7,542.68
03/04/2018	03/04/2018	59361	恒指瑞信八八熊Ｐ	$0.041	$0.045	1000000	$556.62	$3,443.38
04/04/2018	04/04/2018	59479	恒指瑞銀九甲牛Ｃ	$0.021	$0.033	500000	$327.09	$5,672.91
04/04/2018	04/04/2018	57789	恒指瑞信九四牛Ｚ	$0.028	$0.000	500000	$375.62	-$14,375.62
09/04/2008	10/04/2008	67614	恒指瑞信九三牛Ｍ	$0.132	$0.144	500000	$262.08	$5,737.92
10/04/2008	10/04/2008	59369	恒指瑞信八八熊Ｒ	$0.021	$0.024	500000	$326.73	$1,173.27
11/04/2008	11/04/2008	59921	恒指瑞信九四牛Ｉ	$0.064	$0.072	500000	$330.23	$3,669.77
11/04/2008	11/04/2008	59907	恒指瑞信九七牛Ｒ	$0.088	$0.091	500000	$228.39	$1,271.61
12/04/2008		59922	恒指瑞銀九乙牛Ｇ	$0.082		500000	$228.16	-$41,228.16
13/04/2008	13/04/2008	59533	恒指瑞信八八熊	$0.043	$0.046	300000	$182.06	$717.94
15/05/2018		60417	恒指瑞信九甲牛Ｐ	$0.055		300000	$176.28	-$16,676.28
11/07/2018	11/07/2018	63149	恒指瑞信八乙熊Ｉ	$0.078	$0.083	130000	$111.61	$538.39
12/07/2018	13/07/2018	63149	恒指瑞信八乙熊Ｉ	$0.066		150000	$111.26	-$10,011.26
13/07/2018	17/07/2018	69896	恒指法興九甲牛Ｇ	$0.045	$0.00	170000	$55.59	-$7,705.59
05/10/2018	05/10/2018	68219	恒指瑞信九十牛Ｏ	$0.037	$0.042	500000	$113.05	$2,386.95
05/10/2018	08/10/2018	66320	恒指瑞銀九十牛Ｚ	$0.026	$0.011	400000	$167.81	-$6,167.81
08/10/2018	08/10/2018	61427	恒指瑞信九二熊Ｇ	$0.106	$0.113	200000	$113.37	$1,286.63
16/10/2018	16/10/2018	62246	恒指瑞銀零十牛Z	$0.051	$0.035	200000	$100.00	-$3,300.00
24/10/2018	24/10/2018	61105	恒指瑞信零十牛Ｍ	$0.023	$0.029	300000	$111.21	$1,688.79
24/10/2018		60199	恒指瑞信零甲牛Ｅ	$0.032		200000	$55.49	-$6,455.49
11/12/2018	12/12/2018	57286	恒指法興零甲牛Ｘ	$0.039	$0.060	1500000	$131.96	$31,368.04
14/12/2018	18/12/2018	64672	恒指滙豐九五熊K	$0.036	$0.048	2000000	$137.82	$23,862.18
21/12/2018	21/12/2018	57652	恒指瑞通九五牛L	$0.037	$0.044	660000	$114.11	$4,505.89
31/12/2018	31/12/2018	57338	恒指高盛零十牛B	$0.032	$0.038	660000	$113.51	$3,846.49
30/12/2018	31/12/2018	57338	恒指高盛零十牛B	$0.029	$0.056	660000	$114.59	$17,705.41
02/01/2019	02/01/2019	59177	恒指法興九四熊Ｖ	$0.097	$0.103	450000	$116.93	$2,583.07
03/01/2019		59177	恒指法興九四熊Ｖ	$0.114		800000	$73.41	-$91,273.41
03/01/2019	04/01/2019	61048	恒指瑞信零八牛Ｊ	$0.028	$0.056	2000000	$149.47	$55,850.53
04/01/2019	04/01/2019	68029	恒指法興零甲牛 K	$0.051	$0.062	1000000	$9.72	$10,990.28
10/01/2019	29/01/2019	0016	新鴻基地產	$120.90	$127.90	500	$244.58	$3,255.42
11/01/2019	14/01/2019	69983	友邦瑞信九一熊 F	$0.043	$0.046	1000000	$118.35	$2,881.65
16/01/2019	16/01/2019	65336	恒指法興九四熊 W	$0.022	$0.026	900000	$113.32	$3,486.68
16/01/2019	17/01/2019	64113	恒指高盛零十牛 C	$0.045	$0.054	500000	$113.82	$4,386.18
11/02/2019	13/02/2019	67549	恒指高盛零甲牛Ｍ	$0.049	$0.055	200000	$111.60	$1,088.40
13/02/2019	14/02/2019	63985	恒指高盛九四熊Ｗ	$0.037	$0.042	300000	$111.83	$1,388.17
13/02/2019		67992	恒指高盛零甲牛Ｑ	$0.055		800000	$100.00	-$44,100.00
20/02/2019	20/02/2019	63985	恒指高盛九四熊Ｗ	$0.029	$0.048	3000000	$181.13	$56,818.87
22/02/2019	22/02/2019	61490	恒指高盛零九牛Ｂ	$0.029	$0.039	3300000	$180.64	$32,819.36
25/02/2019	25/02/2019	61490	恒指高盛零九牛Ｂ	$0.0529	$0.0553	5600000	$487.67	$13,312.33
25/02/2019	25/02/2019	64739	恒指高盛零九四熊M	$0.0298	$0.013	7000000	$241.18	-$117,841.18
25/02/2019	25/02/2019	61490	恒指高盛零九牛Ｂ	$0.046	$0.049	3000000	$229.43	$8,770.57
26/02/2019	27/02/2019	61768	恒指摩通一二牛T	$0.052	$0.058	3000000	$265.65	$17,734.35
28/02/2019	01/03/2019	61768	恒指摩通一二牛T	$0.044	$0.049	3000000	$168.34	$14,831.66
05/03/2019		69145	恒指海通九六熊R	$0.024		1400000	$57.59	-$33,657.59
16/07/2019	16/07/2019	50516	恒指法巴九乙熊Ｃ	$0.027	$0.032	1000000	$87.04	$4,912.96
16/07/2019	17/07/2019	50516	恒指法巴九乙熊Ｃ	$0.025	$0.039	1000000	$87.50	$13,912.50
18/07/2019	19/07/2019	68484	恒指瑞銀一十牛Ｑ	$0.047	$0.063	1000000	$118.47	$15,881.53
19/07/2019	19/07/2019	50865	恒指法巴九乙熊Ｅ	$0.016	$0.018	1000000	$112.62	$1,887.38
22/07/2019		51178	恒指法興一乙牛Ｕ	$0.017		2000000	$317.62	-$34,317.62
22/07/2019	23/07/2019	50610	恒指摩通九十熊Ｉ	$0.078	$0.073	1000000	$176.59	-$4,676.59
11/09/2019	13/09/2019	55176	恒指瑞銀一乙牛Ｒ	$0.066	$0.069	300000	$113.12	$786.88
18/09/2019	18/09/2019	55739	恒指中銀零二熊Ｓ	$0.043	$0.047	240000	$111.66	$848.34
19/09/2019	19/09/2019	55638	恒指法興一九牛Ｎ	$0.028	$0.032	1000000	$114.85	$3,885.15
19/09/2019	19/09/2019	55719	恒指法巴零三熊Ｆ	$0.055	$0.061	40000	$55.36	$184.65
24/09/2019	24/09/2019	54935	恒指瑞銀一月牛L	$0.051	$0.061	90000	$110.77	$789.23
30/09/2019	30/09/2019	56597	恒指法巴零二熊Ａ	$0.031	$0.034	200000	$111.00	$489.00
02/10/2019	02/10/2019	56615	恒指法興零二熊Ｒ	$0.038	$0.025	180000	$110.87	-$2,450.87
02/10/2019	03/10/2019	54925	恒指高盛一十牛Ｓ	$0.038	$0.048	120000	$110.80	$1,089.20
02/10/2019	02/10/2019	54925	恒指高盛一十牛Ｓ	$0.031		250000	$55.60	-$7,805.60
02/01/2020	02/01/2020	51989	騰訊摩利零二熊Ａ	$0.11	$0.12	100000	$111.72	$688.28
06/01/2020	06/01/2020	69171	恒指法興零五熊Ｈ	$0.04	$0.04	800000	$115.11	$3,884.89
08/01/2020		69171	恒指法興零五熊Ｈ	$0.07	$0.02	500000	$113.28	-$34,613.28
20/05/2020		66361	恒指摩通三四牛Ｉ	$0.048	$0.00	500000	$18.19	-$24,018.19
11/09/2020	14/09/2020	69567	恒指瑞信三甲牛Ｑ	$0.037	$0.043	570000	$113.51	$3,306.49
18/12/2020		55676	恒指瑞信三乙牛Ｊ	$0.028		1000000	$57.16	-$28,057.16

你知道這堆數字，代表緊咩嗎? 為咗令自己記憶更深刻，我認真計數:

2015 P/L:	-44316.5
2016 P/L:	-$32,909.87
2017 P/L:	-$176,219.67
2018 P/L:	-$228,254.27
2019 P/L:	-$61,258.53
2020 P/L:	-$78,808.97

呢堆赤字，怵目驚心。

我以為自己在投資、在玩金錢遊戲。其實，我每年倒咗超過 10 萬落海。

2015-2020年，短短 6 年間，我已經蝕咗 62萬。

我一直以為，自己係透過牛熊證，賺咗層樓、只不過後來蝕返。

誠實面對自己吧。數字不會說謊。

原來，盈利來源是: 月供股票、零存整付、低買高賣正股、豐厚的股息。

教書的穩定高收入、上門補習的高時薪，就是這樣虧掉了。

Annual P/L:	-103627.9675
Gain/ Lose:	-621767.805

求得到手　首先該懂得放手

拿什麼出去扺押　才能換愛永久

有了最大成就　所失的趕不上補救

發誓贏他多一次就夠

為何仍沒法收手

你係咪仲要玩落去? 這樣N+1, 無限loop. 你仲有幾多，可以輸? 

以後，你要怎樣運用你的金錢? 這樣的遊戲，真係好玩咩?

面對現實啦!!!

這壓根兒不是遊戲，公我贏，字你輸。

講得夠清楚嗎?

如果下次賭性發作，買7200 / 7300，或者直接買388 / 2800就好。

最少，它們不會歸0.

今次蝕嘅錢，由媽咪個倉，調撥過去自己個百萬倉先。就當大快活賣出後，筆錢冇用過。以後，切記審慎理財、小心投資、戒賭。